Since I’ve been in my early teens I’ve had days where I just feel like something’s getting wound up inside me. I just feel so restless but so angry and hopeless I’m almost paralysed by it.
Normally, if I can find something physically exhausting but thoughtless to do as soon as I feel it coming on I’ll be fine. If I can’t do that self harming or doing something destructive helps the twisting feeling but leaves me feeling hollow and still just hopeless and nasty.
I’m pregnant and I know I can’t keep dealing with it this way now I’m going to be a parent. I want to ask for help but I don’t know what I’m actually asking for help with because I don’t know what’s wrong with me