Hi everyone.
First post here ever. 2 weeks ago I had my annual review with my mental health nurse, I opened up to her, told her how I am feeling, feelings resurfacing again from past trauma. She called ut retraumatisation. Offered to sign me off. I refused due to fear as I've hit an absence trigger and on a monitor for 3 months. These feelings have resurfaced because of someone in my care is constantly talking of abuse amongst other traumatic things. At the start I felt able to deal with it well. But we are not mental health trained. I've had no one to one meetings with my supervisor, I hardly had a break working with this person, it's just got way too much. So I had another appointment and I've been signed off for a month and I'm self referring me for counselling. This person isn't in the right service for mental health, I'm not the only one who has said this, yet here I am off sick due to it. I'm worried I'm going to get in bother also maybe for speaking up too. In a few weeks I will have attendance meeting which happens after 3 weeks off. I'm dreading it. I want to take a union rep with me, as there's no staff to trust that it'll be in confidence if they come with me for support. I don't know if taking a rep will make it worse for me. I'm constantly worrying all the time. I'm sorry for this post if it's not making sense. I'm just lost.