I had really bad depression for 2 weeks after giving birth 14 months ago. Since it subsided, I assumed it was baby blues. I felt low at home, so decided to go back to work in October 2023, 6 months postpartum. I was fine until February this year when I had low thoughts and started Fluoxetine 20mg and noticed a slight improvement until May, when I increased my dose to 40mg. Since I upped it, I have had thoughts of suicide, leaving my husband and baby, and wanting to be alone. I have seen the GP and have weaned back to 20mg and will stop altogether next week. I still feel so numb and suicidal and feel nothing for my husband or baby. I am off work for 2 weeks but feel so lost and empty. Baby remains at childminders every day. Has anyone ever experienced this? Also, I can't eat (very unusual for me as I'm very overweight).