I've always been bad for this. Replaying conversations and situations over and over again. I need to learn to stop but I'm not sure how.
Yesterday I had a run in with a "man" (I wouldn't call him a man based on his behaviour and his sons excuse for his behaviour is he is 71 and from a different time) where he threatened and intimidated me when I went to speak to them about 2 of their grandkids who were chasing and punch my child. I was watching the whole thing but the first child didn't realise I was there and the second just wanted revenge for his cousin getting in trouble.
I was in tears so much so I couldn't go to work last night. I couldn't stop crying. The dads of the 2 boys came round and it was sorted but I can't stop replaying what happened in my head over and over. I'm fighting back tears just now as I type this.
And no I'm not going to the police. The last time I contacted them when someone tried to run me off the road after he cut me off at a roundabout they couldn't have cared less. It was on a dual carriage way too so high speeds and could have had serious consequences. Our police is so overstretched they can't even attend to serious matters let alone those less severe in nature.
I have tried deep breathing and distraction. Telling myself to stop works for a short time but my kind wanders back.