I'm in a bad place

[helpthisisnotgood]

I need somewhere to get this out. I am not in a good place at all. I don't want to go into specifics but I've made a mistake at work and I'm in trouble. Potentially a disciplinary. I'm not sure if I could lose my job. I have to sit it out and see wait. I'm a mum to 2 kids who need me but all I can think is the only way out of this is to end it all. I don't see any other way. Can anyone help, feel like I can't breathe 😢

No job is worth ‘ending it all’. It can be hard to see the way out while you are panicking but take some deep breaths and make a plan.

Do you have a union at work or someone who can support you? If so, contact them and ask for help. I don’t have much other advice but even if it feels world-ending now, it won’t matter in 5 years time, I promise!

I’ve felt like this too on occasion. But things are never as bad as you think they’ll be.

have you spoken to your manager?

If it’s a genuine mistake, would it not go better for you to own up? Explain what’s happened and why, and what you need to do/training you need so it doesn’t happen again. Might still be a disciplinary but perhaps a better outcome.

Some mistakes are so serious they might amount to gross misconduct.

Difficult to say without knowing exactly what’s happened, how long you’ve been in the job etc.

But I don’t agree that the only way is to wait it out. If it’s that serious, it won’t go unnoticed. And you’ll be worrying every day until it is. Take some control to avoid that endless worry and go and talk to your boss or HR.

Ending it is far from the only way. No job is worth that.

Yep. This has happened to me, I was shocked dumb. I recovered. Have a good job.

You’re suffering because you care. Hold that thought close. And when you recover you will know your children will value the warrior in you.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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So I'm a healthcare professional registered with a professional body. This has been reported to my manager, and they are investigating currently, which is why I'm saying I have to await the outcome. I've already had a meeting to discuss it with them, I've been open and honest and held my hands up. Never been in any trouble before. I've been practising in this profession for 17 years with an exemplary record.

are you in the union?

That all sounds really stressful. It probably won’t be as bad as you have built this up in your head, it often isn’t. Were you already in a bad place before this happened? Is this the last straw?

Keep talking here, but I would think about calling the Samaritans, they can make a real difference xxx

I found this thread because I took have made a mistake at work. And coincidentally I am also a registered Health Care professional! Just to know you are experiencing, and have done, something similar is comforting to me. We are human, and there is no mistake that is out of the realms of probability for us. Especially if we are stressed, overworked, unstimulated, untrained, distracted, tired, ill, impulsive, or just not thinking clearly in a given moment.

Anyway, this in a old thread, so I hope you are getting through. Minute by minute, day by day, to new ground. You are honestly not alone. Thank you for your original post.