Help me I don’t know what is going on with me today!

[HLPRusters]

I feel horrendous today, have done since waking up. I don’t have the best diet, but today I have had a full pack of chocolate digestives, half a pack of Jaffa cakes, crisps, a chocolate GU pot, lots of tea and coffee and I am wanting to eat the other chocolate GU pot.
I haven’t wanted to eat anything other than the absolute crap I’ve eaten, so it’s not surprising I feel like shit. I also feel like I need to cry but feel numb at the same time. I’ve been through a lot of trauma and I’m on fluoxetine.
But why am I being like this today? I don’t know how to snap out of it. I feel absolutely miserable and want everyone to leave me alone. Also just want to tell everyone to fuck off, and feel like I want to off myself although I know I would never do that.
Please help with advice, what do I do I feel out of control..

I’m sorry you’re having such a difficult day.
sometimes I eat lots of sugar when I need nurture and comfort, might that be part of it?
can you snuggle up and watch something reallly benign- I think Friends is good for times like this.

Thanks, that is a really good point that I didn’t think of. I’ve been a single mother for a long time and although I get love and affection from my children, I do miss the affection from a partner, but it’s not realistic at this time.
Oh yes I love watching friends, great suggestion.

It sounds like you are having a particularly low day. I find the trick is to embrace it, curl up on a sofa, watch something comforting and easy, make east choices and allow yourself a break from the mental gymnastics of making the right choices, being your best self etc. Sometimes you just feel shit, could br tiredness, hormones, a dip after running on adrenaline or something. Just write today off. I felt a bit like this over the weekend, couldn't muster the enthusiasm to do anything productive and then felt shit about if. Decided to embrace it and today I have more energy and drive to do things. I think I was just a bit burnt out. Remember, tomorrow is another day.

Thanks, I do agree with embracing it at times. However today I haven’t had the time to embrace it today with work and chores etc, so just felt myself losing control.

@HLPRusters can you have an easier evening? Take a day off sick tomorrow if you need it!