Severe and disturbing intrusive thoughts, pregnant and terrified

[Stephanieava]

I am 11 weeks pregnant and suffering with severe HG, i’m basically bed bound at the moment

With so much time to myself I have been browsing social media and have worked myself into a tizzy about being out in public

I am absolutely terrified of some sort of terror / aggressive attack. I find myself thinking about when it’s time to give birth and what if there’s an attack on the hospital when I’m there

I think about my first born going out with my parents or my husband whilst I’m at home ill, what if there’s an attack and I’m not there

The fear is starting to become all consuming. I suppose I don’t know what the point of this post is as I know this is all very unlikely to happen… but the point is, it could

I’m not sleeping due to anxiety, pile that on top of not being able to eat or drink very much at all, I just feel like I’m shutting down

Did anybody else go through this stage? Every thought in my mind seems irrational. I’m so desperately low

Hey I didn't want to read and run.
I would say this is is almost certainly part of the anxiety.
I didn't get those thoughts whilst pregnant but have done in the last few years.
Speak with your GP as soon as you can 🩷

I am so sorry you're going through this, I had HG this time last year and it too tanked my mental health. The best thing I did was insist on being referred to a mental health midwife who was brilliant and put a plan in place - including getting me some CBT - to help me through. I also used Pregnancy Sickness Support's WhatsApp service which helped me feel a little less alone and more supported. A year on, that is all becoming a distant memory and I am doing well. I really, really feel for you. You are truly in the trenches and it's so hard to help people understand how horrible HG is if they haven't experienced it. But there is light at the end of the tunnel - you and your family will be ok and these feelings (physical and mental) will pass.