Hi, I am going to describe how I feel and I want you to guys help me see if I need to get help or is it normal? How do overcome this, where is the problem?
So basically most of the days I feel sad .My motivation is zero , for even simple things like housework.
Sometimes I try to mask these feelings m by going places or being with family, just keep my mind busy ,but again I can't do that always as money is an issue for us . Yesterday I noticed I was sad even when I wasn't alone . I don't know if it's me or the wrong people around me. I just feel this emptiness.
I am struggling to play with my child too. Struggling to be close to my partner , I don't even know if I love him anymore or is this just my feelings . I feel the only time I am a bit happier is when I try to mask things with what is not internal. I don't have friends that I would love to have a chat with. I have a close cousin but with her it's only gossip and having a drink, it gets exhausting,no deep conversation.
I don't know what I want , what I like . I just want to feel internally happy and not feel this sadness inside me !
I have lost my spark . I used to be quite outgoing,looked after myself . Now I am just this ball of sadness floating around . I have let myself down massively in looks too , I am only 30 years old .