Relationship broken I am broken

[helpo]

I am in a terrible place I really need to be dead.
I need to find a way out.

They know. And no I don't have people to talk to.
Yes I'm post menopausal will take more HRT.
It just makes me want sex. But doesn't really help much. Well maybe a bit.

@ihatecoffee. What helped?

She doesn't need me. She's absolutely nasty to me. The cruelty is beyond imagination.
She is vile to me. She actually says I'm mentally unstable and her dad is perfect. Everything is my fault. Her cruelty is beyond any description.

OP, I have been where you are. Not all that long ago. Keep talking - to us, to someone else, anyone. Just keep talking.

Have you been to your GP?

How old is your DD? Teenage girls can behave appallingly to the people that they love the most.

Do you think that it might be family therapy that is needed?

Apologies for asking so many questions, feel free to not answer them.

She's 16. They won't go to therapy.

I am over teen girls behaving badly.

Her overall beis ok.

Her treatment of me is hideous

Her overall behaviour is ok.

Op, she is a teenager, remember : this all shall pass. With time, her behaviour will change. Can you take a short break and go somewhere with a friend? Lots of beautiful nature around, peace, and walks to keep you energised? Or think about what you did in the past that gave you joy and do it again? Life is so much more than family issues no matter how bad they are, please try to focus on yourself and small things in life that make you happy

She is vile. Really vile. It's been 4 years of this.
I think the people saying she's a teen have not been on the other end of teen doing this.

I really do. It's horrific.
And my sister who is not a teen does the same.

Both of them go mad when I say be polite.

They go so angry.

It's like I have to be beaten up no matter what.

Maybe it is me. Husband daughter and sister all say the same.

So maybe it's me and I need to just go.

It isn't you OP. And you shouldn't believe it is. No-ones life would be better without you having yours. Not one persons. Your daughters issues would simply be reflected into someone else. Her issues are not yours.

However, I can see that the constant battering coming your way must be exhausting. I can see that. And I can see that when those batterings are at their worst, and no one can stop them that you must think of a way out. That isn't the way out.

The way out is to pick where you're going to start - that can be the GP. Book a double appointment and go and say exactly what you're saying here. Thats your start.

Your daughter needs help. Step 2 can be engineering where that comes from.

Step 3 - you go from there.

But step one is getting the help you need. You are the most important thing here at the minute.

The pain you can feel from other humans can be unbelievably unbearable.

Family can hurt you soo much.

And people in friendship groups. Some people on the edges can hurt you so much.

My daughters boyfriend's mum is nasty to me.