Sick of not feeling enough

[Tiddlesem]

Apologies in advance if this all sounds very self pitying as I know it is but just sick of feeling this way. I have spent my whole life not feeling good enough. Not smart enough. Not funny enough. Not cool enough. I'm awkward and lack social skills. I constantly compare myself to others and can't seem to stop. As i write it it sounds so childish. I am in my 30s with 2 DDs.
I have tried CBT a few times, didn't help. Currently doing trauma therapy which is helping in other ways but not this. I'm on medication but maybe I need it increased. Sick of feeling this way. Can't seem to ever feel like I fit in somewhere. Wondering if anyone has any nice words or similar feelings?

I have had similar feelings to you. I think you have it quite hard with little ones as it is so full on.
I am sure that you have some good points but in the thick of it, it can be really hard to see.
I have had different forms of therapy and actually got on well with CBT, I know it is not for everyone. Are you able to reframe negative thoughts? Do you talk negatively to yourself? I used to (still do very occasionally) but I try to loom for positives in every situation.

It may be worth looking at your medication I am now on the right combination and it makes such a difference.

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Hi. So sorry you're feeling this way. I definitely go through phases of feeling like this and it's really rubbish and I quite often feel hatred for myself or cringe at things I have done in the past. It's hard to live with. I think it comes from things which happened to me as a child. I don't know how to solve it but just wanted you to know you're not alone. Sometimes I work on it and do a lot better at being kinder to myself but other times (stressed or before period) I lose the discipline. Most people wouldn't know I feel like this as I have a loving husband, children, a professional job, a house, fairly attractive etc. I hope you find a way forward.

Thanks so much @Allthecatseverywhereallatonce. It's definitely hard at the moment, I am a SAHM with 4 and 2 year old and dont make anytime for myself really. I know I need to look after myself but find it hard to get the motivation.
I am going to speak to my GP about my medication as I think I could do with an increase I've been on 100mg setraline for some time now.

@Curlyhaired thank you for your kind words. I really needed it. Feeling very alone tonight.