I am currently 7 sessions into high intensity CBT for depression and am on 30mg of mirtazipine. When talking to the doctor about upping my meds as I didn't feel the 15mg was doing anything, she said that she feels a referral for ASD assessment would be helpful.
I've never felt like I fit in with others, it's like I'm walking down a path that runs nearly parallel to the one everyone else is on but not quite. I agreed to the referral but now I'm worried that they'll turn around and say that I've wasted their time and think that I'm trying to mark myself out as 'special' or 'different' because it's attention seeking. All I want is to stop feeling so worthless and to understand what's going on.