Absolutely spiralling after a bout of flu

[ThatPeachSnake]

I have been ill for 6 days. Bad cough, fever, been in bed, no appetite etc. been off work and been inside. I have seen no one apart from my husband.

For some reason, it’s spiralled me into a horrible feeling of depression and hopelessness. I have not felt depressed in 10+ years like this. The feeling is super triggering and taking me back to a really dark place.

I am sat here getting so upset thinking about my husband dying, how I will cope when he does, my parents dying etc. Just absolutely spiralling, crying.

I am worried I am more ill than I think I am and I have some sort of pneumonia or something. I’m questioning every little feeling I have.

Not eating at all. Food is turning my stomach. I can’t get out of bed.

I feel like I am having some sort of breakdown. It’s awful.

What on earth is going on?!

Hey,

Firstly I'm sorry for how you've been feeling. This happened to me back in 2011, with what was my first major bout of depression and anxiety.

I think flu is just so hard on your body that you don't have the strength to do anything but survive. Everything you're unable to do - exercise, get outside, eat healthy food - is exactly what you NEED to do to make you feel better. You'd been lying in bed, you're bound to feel rubbish.

Take baby steps, practice self care when you can, and I promise you, you'll gradually start to feel better. If you have any dangerous thoughts, or things don't start to get better, please contact your GP!