There is nothing seriously physically wrong with me, I don't think, but so many smaller things that I am struggling to cope.
IBS - The D type. If I go anywhere I have to load up on immodium, wear pads etc. Even then there's still issues sometimes. At home I'm running to the loo so often, not always making it in time. It's exhausting and really depressing.
Various pain issues, its a rare day when there isn't something that hurts.
I can't remember the last time I had a full nights sleep.
I have really bad melasma all over my face and body, large brown patches of skin when I'm naturally pale. It looks horrible and it's especially noticeable on my face. Now I also have a huge outbreak of dermatitis on my face. I genuinely look hideous (and I wasn't that attractive to start with!).
I've seen doctors about all these things. None of which they appear to be able to do much about. I have tried and tried to stay positive but I now feel like I'm fighting a losing battle.
I'm already on anti depressants, so that's not something new I can try. I don't see that any type of "therapy" would change anything. My problems are rooted in physical issues. But I am so tried now of looking so horrible and feeling so horrible. I'm so tired of trying to be positive and trying to not let how I look affect me.
At this point, I'm not sure I'll ever leave my house again. I don't want that to be my life but I don't know what else to do.