My son has history of poor mental health. He's been on antidepressants for a few years now.
2021 he attempted to take his life which left me traumatised and diagnosed with PTSD.
Recently he split up with his partner and she text me this morning at 2am to say he's really struggling and that he needs to speak to a professional ASAP.
I did ask him why he didn't come to me as we had an agreement after the suicide attempt that if he's in trouble he must tell me, but he said he didn't want to worry me, but of course I'm going to worry, I'm worrying even more now because he wrote a suicide note this morning (his ex told me) and he self harmed.
I did with his permission put in a request to speak to a doctor, the only thing is, he will lie and say he's okay. This is why I haven't called the crisis line, because he will make out everything is okay.
I'm right back to 2021 and I have shocking mental health myself. I don't know what to do for the best. He won't be honest with anyone apart from his ex and she's miles away.
I am terrified. I feel sick - and this is something I have to carry alone.