So my mom has always suffered with anxiety and depression . She has always heavily relied on me for support and her only social network. 12 years ago she had a break down it was awful to see. Two years ago her meds stopped working n she had another break down. I’m a single mom with two young children doing a uni degree as well as working.
she came to live with me it was so hard she told me daily she didn’t want me to leave her to go to work she told me daily she wanted to die and for me to help her. Psychiatrists were useless just kept adding more meds which she had bad side effects from. After 6 months changed med calmed her down a bit and eventually moved back to her flat. Though she still had to come to my house every day till 6pm as she didn’t feel she could be on her own. This affected me as I couldn’t make olans with friends take kids out I had to sit in all day with her.
fast forward another 6 months and it’s got completely worse again. She tried to kill herself ended up in a hospital which she said bullied her so came back to stay with me again. Same things happened I had to be with her 24/7 my brother stayed with her if I had to go to work or the off chance got to spend 1:1 time with my child re as if I’m at home she wants me to sit with her and watch tv with her so she’s not alone. If I disagree with her she says if I kill myself it’s your fault!
she is with me all the time I need to breath I struggle so much I love her so much and feel if I back off she will kill herself but I can’t do this for the rest of my life it’s not fair on my children nor on me. Iv basically failed this year at uni as get no time to complete my assignment n if I do I’m stressing about her constantly!
im not sure why I’m writing this I just need to vent how I feel!
I can’t do this anymore stress and worry she’s gonna kill healed. She won’t listen to doctors, psychiatric nurses says everyone is agianst her n everyone has had enough of her