Anxiety

[Anon182347]

Hi all
Im just looking for some advice. My friend and I booked a suprise trip to London for another friends birthday however as it gets closer I really don't want to go.
I've been suffering from anxiety lately and just the thought of it is making me feel unwell.
I think my main worry is leaving kids and hubby, im a total homebody. My kids are 6 and 10 so not really young but 6 year old is my wee shadow just now and I know i'll really miss her. Its only for one night but 2 full days if that makes sense, I won't see her for the full day Sat as leaving very early or Sun as back late night. I know my 10 year old will be fine. They will be with hubby so no issues of childcare.
I know I'm totally over reacting and it's my anxiety but I just wish I hadn't booked it but feel bad cancelling.
I'm also very nervous of flying as not been on a flight in years.
I'm reluctant to take meds as had fluoxetine in the past and it makes me so tired plus I'm mostly fine in day to day life using exercise and relaxation, it's just things like this that cause me major anxiety.
Thanks for reading, any advice would be much appreciated.

It's entirely your choice but if you do cancel this for reasons which you know aren't rational you will find yourself swerving other opportunities until your world becomes diminishes to a small safe zone. Not good for you, not good for your children.

Instead of thinking of the negatives try picturing the good things about the weekend in your imagination. The excitement of travelling, the fun of being in a hotel and dressing up, the laughs your will have with your friends, the chance to stay up late and lie in in the morning. If you switch the focus to all the positives you can turn this around.

It’s you anxiety making the decision your catastrophizing that’s what anxiety does ..I done talking therapy and it helped no end honesty go but also look into talking therapy for the future it really helps and it helps you understand anxiety to help you cope …go and have a lovely time x

I can totally sympathise @Anon182347 as I am always like this too with going away. As others have said though I’m sure everything you are feeling anxious about will be nowhere near as bad once you are there. Do your friends know you are feeling anxious about it? Maybe mention it to them so if you did feel nervous on the flight for example, they would understand and help you feel more at ease? There are medications you can take which can help with anxiety and aren’t anti depressants, like propanalol which helps calm the symptoms of panic which u may be able to ask ur gp about xx

Thanks for replies and advice, I know my anxiety is to blame for feeling this way, it's just so hard to get over. I will definately look into talking therapy.
Yeah my friends know I suffer from anxiety so they will understand. I have proprananol as used this for specific occasions but not for a while so this may be an idea. I just hope I'm psychically able to go as when anxiety is very bad I start having insomnia and can get an upset stomach.