To go off sick..

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I have 2 children (4&6).
I work 4 days a week.

My house is fucking disgusting. I've got clothes piled up that need washing. My brain feels like it's going 100mph constantly.
I spend all night, every night worrying about work. I've changed teams recently, and whilst the job is actually amazing, I'm really struggling to learn new things. I've been given 2 roles to do at the same time and I'm doing everything wrong. I'm
Not grasping anything new (I have a few issues with memory and learning since developing epilepsy). I can't keep up with the workload. I have told them this and they've been brill and told me not to worry, but I can't stop.

All I want to do is cry. I've got so much to do in all areas of my life, that I'm doing nothing. I'm blatantly not coping.

I want to have a few weeks off sick but I'm also mortified to do this. I'm so embarrassed as I was always really resilient until I had my children. I would never even have taken a day off pre-kids, and kind of admitting that I can't cope just feels so embarrassing. I am fortunate in that I work for civil service and can get sick pay, but I will feel so guilty.

Any tips on how to somehow power through, or if you would take time off on the same circumstances.

Oh my god do it and take longer! Take the wbsoloute amount you need. Why are you doing 4 days ?

Also upon return have a review with HR and adjust your role

Absolutely take the time off. It will not affect you financially and a job is just a job, they would replace you in a heart beat but you can't be replaced at home. Take the time, gut your house out while off you will feel so productive and you feel like you have gained control over at least one section of your life, and spend some nice quality time with the kids after School also, you will feel far better for it.

I think you need to tackle the issues head on. What will improve after you return from sick leave if you don't?

Could you speak with HR/Management and deal with the work issues? Tell them everything, they are there to help and will support you. They will adjust your role. If they don't, your time is better placed looking for something new.

If you take some time off sick, sure you'll have time to do your laundry and run the hoover round but you'll spend the whole time dreading going back to work and you are just putting your head in the sand.

Speak to HR about your role and perhaps book a weeks annual leave to catch up on housework, you'll feel so much better. It's like a new start.

You'll get droves of people on here telling you to go off sick but IMO just going off sick will make you feel worse and locks you in a trap.