I'm just feeling sorry for myself, feel free to ignore.

[LilRedWG]

I just need to get this out of my head or I'll scream. This week just sucked, massively, but for no real reason other than shitty depression getting me down.

I was meant to go for a drink with a friend on Friday evening and I had to really psych myself up to go, as Friday had been such a hard day depression wise, so I was a little relieved when she text to say she was knackered and could we make it Saturday night.

Last night arrives and she calls me an hour before we're due to meet to say she didn't sleep the night before so she's tired and not feeling up to the pub. Fair enough, I don't mind cancelling, she's knackered, has two small children - I understand. I did get a bit down though that I spent half an hour on the phone reassuring her about her baby and everything else that is stressing her out and not once did she ask how I was. Then she says that she might go to the gym or for a swim rather than have an early night. DH went and got me a bottle of wine and we watched a film together, so it was a nice night even though I felt a bit fedup.

DH is playing golf this morning with his Dad. (luckily the weather is nice) The plan was for his Mum to drop his Dad at the golf course and then come here to spend the morning with me and DD and I was really looking forward to it. I get on great with my MIL and DD adores her. Plus, it does give me a bit of break having someone else here to play with DD (22months) - that sounds awful, , but I guess lots of people will know what I mean.

So anyway, DH goes out to meet his Dad and ten minutes later calls me to tell me his Mum isn't coming MIL calls me a little later to say she hadn't realised what time they were meeting and that she's still in bed as she didn't want to get up early.

Now I know that neither my friend or MIL has meant to upset me but I really needed them this weekend and am feeling sorry for myself. Poor DD found me crying in the kitchen and just stood there rubbing and patting my back - a toddler shouldn't have to do that for their Mummy.

If you have got this far, thank you. I know I have no problems, especially compared to many others, but I just feel so depressed and low at the moment. I don't know what response I want - a slap or a hug.

Anyway, DH will be home later and then we have another friend coming over this afternoon and staying for dinner, so the rest of the day should be good, but I just want to go to bed and hide.

aw....hugs XXXXX
Cant say anything very helpful cos I'm at about the same point you are, but I'm thinking of you and sending hugs XXXXX

Hi,

Hope you are ok. Do you have a park nearby that you could go to just to get out of the house. It soulnds silly but a bit of fresh air might help a bit. Also I do find that walking helps me feel better.

It does get better honest, it is just really difficult to see it sometimes. I have just had a bad couple of weeks but am coming through the other end .

Does your friend really understand what you are going through. My friends are supportive but you do have to spell it out to them that you are feeling bad and could do with some company/change of scene. If I do that I find that at least one of my friends will be able to help.

aww i suspect this is last of a line of little things that have caused you to feel so bad.

I too find friends see me as 'their'shoulder to cry on rather than help me,maybe its becuse you re hiding your disappointment too well?

sometimes you have to be blunt nd say something -not to cause a row but to say what you think.

can you get to your mils house? you could go there a change is s good as a rest so they say!

Thanks all. DH phoned at 11am to say that he and FIL had only played nine holes (instead of the planned 18) and were on the way back. FIL stayed for a couple of coffees and helped DH with a couple of jobs.

I found out why MIL called - it was because DH had phoned her to tell her that I was disappointed and upset (I hadn't told him I was upset, but he knows how down I've been). I touched that DH would call his Mum and tell her that.

Am in a better frame of mind now but still feeling delicate. DH has taken DD to see the new lambs and to the park so I've got an hour to myself

Elk/Windy - you've both hit the nail on the head, I never tell people that it's a problem, I always say, "don't worry".

Skipsmum - thanks for the hugs, I hope you are feeling brighter soon.

Elk - I'm glad you're feeling happier