Support thread for severe mental illness

[Serencwtch]

Have just been discharged following section 2 admission for psychosis related to bipolar.

I thought I'd start a support thread for those of us living and functioning best we can with the more severe mental health diagnoses- bipolar I, schizophrenia, schizo-affective etc & the challenges that come with that.

I know I'm not the only one that juggles family, work, normal life whilst living with the most serious mental illnesses.

I'm glad the lurasidone is helping you, @Zimrun .

I dont know wtf is wrong with me. Always struggled with anxiety and depression. A breakup that was my fault has sent me spiralling and I want to k* myself. I have fucked up my life so badly and don't see a way back.

Really struggling tonight.

hiya,

i was placed under section last year around this time i suffer from psychosis, depression & anxiety late last year i had undergone a workplace capability assessment and the result was i’m unfit to work and received benefits. despite this i managed to land my self a job earlier this year, my mental health did see an improvement however it’s at an awful place at this current time. my job isn’t something i want to do either i desperately want to do something relating to my degree ;(

(sorry for any written mistakes i do have learning difficulties)

Hello all. I am under CMHT for EUPD and am doing twice weekly psychological therapy under NHS. I had a late diagnosis late 30s when I had a breakdown with hospitalisation. I can relate to a lot of these posts although my condition isn't the same. I'm struggling at the moment with feeling like two people. There is the version of myself I show in treatment and the version of me which is in the world outside that. It feels like the more I face up to my difficulties or maybe the less I am able to compensate for them, the harder it is to keep putting a front on but I don't know any other way and I'm scared I'd breakdown emotionally if I tried to be more real. And also I don't really think anyone wants you to be anything other than the version of yourself that meets their needs. I'm feeling quite emotional about it all today and so I appreciate the thread

@BallerinaFall How are you doing? Do your feel able to ring a helpline or Samaritans to talk about what's going on? 💐

I spoke with the crisis team.

I walked out the house Saturday morning in just the clothes that I'm wearing and my debit card thinking I'd be back in a few hours and I can't go home

Hey @BallerinaFall didn't want to read and run.

Things sound beyond tough. How has the time been since you posted?

Just joining the thread. Going through a crisis right now but have reached out for help so that’s something.

Welcome @Smallcupoftea sorry to hear you're going through it at the moment. Reaching out for help is really hard and really brave.

@BallerinaFall hope that you're doing okay. Update us when you feel up to it

@Serencwtch How are you doing? The transition back after being impatient can be quite tough. How are you finding it?

Thank you @Slenderisthelight
well done on getting a job @cutieee

Crisis team are coming out to see me this morning. Bit nervous. But also relieved.

I hope they are compassionate and supportive. Keep is touch with us on here, if it's helpful.

I'm on my way to work. I have a part-time job I started a few months ago. It going okay but stress is so damaging for MH so I'm having to work really hard to avoid having episodes of illness at work. I don't care what the law says, stigma in the workplace is a thing.

I hope everyone has an okay Tuesday

Yes this thread is helpful to me. I’ve been ill for a few months and this combined with my mum close to death has triggered my crisis. I feel so bad that I haven’t been able to spend so much time with her in her last months because of my own illness - still undiagnosed.

My positive for today is that I just managed a small dog walk with dh despite feeling exhausted and nauseous.

@Smallcupoftea that's is really great you managed to get out for a walk with dog and DH. You can only do what you are able right now. I understand feeling guilty but there is no reason to. I'm really sorry that your mum is nearing the end. That is a massive thing to be facing and more complicated relationships can be very triggering at the best of times so give yourself a break.