Hi all
Ive always been an anxious person, always on edge etc but seems to be getting worse.
I overthink and catastrophize think, it's exhausting.
An example for you, my dh business is making redundancys, he has been told by his boss that he will be 'safe' this was a couple of months ago. He is also keeping an eye out for other things I'm a sahm and all I'm thinking is the mortgage we won't be able to afford, with that in mind I have just gone into a very bad mindset cant shake it off, sleep, eat properly the uncertainty and stress. I love gardening, it's my passion and what keeps me going but I haven't even gone outside to do anything in it because I'm like 'whats the point if we're going to lose the place' my brain NEVER thinks of situations with a positive outcome, his position might be safe, even if not he can find something else my brain always paints the worst picture with everything and leaves me in a very bad negative state of mind.
Has anyone sought therapy for being like this or has any methods to help or medication?!
Even when nothing specifically major is going on in life, things are great, calm etc I can't let myself be to 'happy' encase something goes wrong... I have to be prepared for something negative to come my way. It's ridiculous, how can my brain be like this? I'm happy then a voice just says ok...tone it down a bit now.
I'm honestly sick of it, I've not had the best childhood I don't know if that stems from it
Sorry for long post