Hi. I seem to be terrible choosing men to get into a relationship with. I was in a relationship with a man I met online, he turned out to be an alcoholic and cheated/betrayed me with three different women. I tried to make the relationship work but it was just me, I kept asking what happened, we were so happy? He had nothing to say. It took me a while but I asked him to sleep out of the house/then move out.
I now feel I have real relationship anxiety. I really struggle with holidays from work and now I am off work I don't know what to do with myself. I find myself really lonely in the evenings (in the day it's different because I can keep busy) but I can barely cope if a friend lets me down and today I was waiting all day thinking my friend was coming for a meet up or a walk.
I got talking to someone online. Sounded educated, romantic, intelligent, looking for a better relationship than he had previously... I was enjoying talking to him for about a month. Had some really enthusiastic messages from him. Now, I might be right and I might be wrong but I've got a lot of anxiety about it all... I got his interest but he might be married, he goes quiet about texting or calling once he gets home. Obviously I'm not interested in cheaters or talking to married people.
But the point is; does anyone know how to relax, how to become content, how to get rid of relationship anxiety? I've had so many showers and walks and phone calls and I just don't know what to do with myself. I could go to bed early. I'm now starting to have a drink (there's drinks in the house because I had a big party a couple of days ago) to relax in the evening and i'm worried this is the exact cycle my ex went through and now it's my turn.