Worried about being sacked for mental health

[Acer24]

A new manager started at the end of last year and we didn’t get on, now looking back I couldn’t see it then but I was mentally unwell. A couple of months after this manager started, I was in a team meeting and pulled up afterwards for my demeanour and told I was bringing the team down and making the office a negative place to work.
This manager then took me into a meeting gave me a personal improvement plan with no prior warning and said they would work through it with me to help. The plan was for 3 months and if no improvement then disciplinary procedures may be started.

I wasn’t aware before this that my work was an issue and with me realising I had slipped into a depression this made me much worse. I decided to tell this manager about my depression and they asked what could be done to help me do my job. Changing to an hour later start, allowing quiet time to work out of the office and an open door policy with my manager. I felt much better about this and began trying to put my head down and work on.

We are now nearly towards the end of the improvement plan (3 months) and I have been told by my manager that although they’ve seen improvements, I do well and then I slip back and as a company we are going into a busy period and won’t be able to support me and make sure I’m not “slipping back” into my old habits. And if I were to stay I would need to be micro managed and have targets to meet every day / week.

I genuinely thought I was doing so well and being positive for the rest of the team. Now my manager talks of whether this is the job for me. I’ve been there 3 years with no issues and have done the jobs of 4 people before they took on more staff.

I’ve now had to speak to my GP and they’ve strongly advised I take time off because my MH is bad. The GP said I should have done this months ago, but I didn’t want to be a burden to the company and go off. Instead I took everything they had to say and pushed forward.

Now I’m off and I’m so scared I will be sacked or “let go” because I can’t do my job. I find it so hard to focus and finish tasks with the way I am. But when I’m well I am brilliant at my job. If they think I’m going to keep “slipping back” and how long should the company keep going round in this circle, I feel they have given up on me and don’t want the hassle.

im sorry this is a lot. I just need to get this out because im overthinking and my anxiety is through the roof.

My manager wants to call me for a “catch up chat” and just the thought of it makes me feel physically sick. Will they tell me I just need to leave?

[DarkDarkTimeOfLife]

Get signed off.
WHEN you are in a better place to return, your company will have to show they have put in place to support you, and there are things to protect you just being let go. Maybe get occupational health involved too?
I hope things improve for you soon

https://www.acas.org.uk/supporting-mental-health-workplace

[Acer24]

Thank you for your kind reply.

I have been signed off by my GP for 4 weeks.
How would I go about getting occupational health involved? Sorry I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before 😔