I'm really feeling so low at the moment. This is the second time ive tried to come off sertraline, and I've had 3 months off, I can feel myself going under. But I don't want to take ad's....there's got to be another way? Has anyone ever got through a period of depression and treated it a different way?
Everything feels like crap at the moment, and I think ad's numb that. My marriage is in a mess, my DP pays no attention to my MH and never has done. I resent him so much. We spend long periods of time not talking. Last night I made a comment aBout how nice a celebrity looked on TV, and he responded that he hated this female and hated everything about her. I replied 'dont say that, that's evil! He picked up his stuff and went to bed, wouldn't talk to Me for the rest of the night. I've apologised but he's still mad.
His dad is quite ill with cancer and he works 12 hour days so he's under alot if stress. I work 4 days a week and am left to get both children up and out of the house by 8am every day. I'm worn out. My parents are older and can't support me as much anymore. I hate my job. My eldest Is very challenging of a morning, the other morning he shouted that he wanted to kill himself ...he's only 7. I am ready to cry most mornings.
I have about 2-3 friends but wonder why anybody would want to be friends with me. My heart hurts on the school run when I see groups of mums together and a community that I am not part of. I actively avoid interaction and am deliberately late for pick ups to avoid people so I've done this myself but I genuinely find people hard work to be around at the moment. I've no idea how to be around people.
It's not like I'm young, I'm 42....I thought by this age I was supposed to have it all figured out and have got my sh*t together.