Last year I was hospitalized with a really bad infection. The week prior I was too unwell to do anything but I did what I could to take care of my dc and not scare them when I felt like I was at deaths door.
I contacted the gp numerous times and unfortunately my infection was brushed off til it got to a point it couldn't be ignored. Even once in the emergency room I was dismissed. Eventually I was admitted and given treatment.
I witnessed a lot of chaos during my time there which doesn't help the way I'm feeling now.
Basically now it's been several months and since I have felt really low. I was so scared I would die and leave my dc. All drs I have spoken to in my follow up appointments have confirmed I was seriously ill so this is no exaggeration.
I am now just living life scared. Scared I will get another infection or just scared I will die. Scared of having to leave my dc to go into hospital again and witness what I did before.
I cry a lot. I had a cold recently and broke down when I was home alone, scared it would lead to some type of infection.
I try to exercise by jogging and simple cardio, I eat healthier generally try to be healthy.
I am not who I was before my infection. I look at pictures from before and can't believe how I was so happy and not scared of everything.
I have only really wrote this to get it off my chest. If anyone does reply I am really great full. Any similar experiences and if you ever made it through the other side.