why oh why do I hate going to work so much

[heatblast]

I know I am probably about to sound really silly.

I work 2 nightshifts in a nursing home the work is very heavy and its hard work.

My problem is that I never want to go I only work every Wednesday and thursday 9.00pm until 7.30am.

It fills me with dread going to the point were I feel depressed, tired, and grumpy.
I cry at the thought of going.
I just feel that I can't handle work at all.
I feel terrible for feeling like this as its not like I go every day its just twice a week.

I am due there tonight and I don,t want to go all I want to do is curl up in bed instead.

If I am honest I have had no go for a while with anything.
What is wrong with me I don,t just feel its the line of work I am in I would probably be the same in any job.
Can somebody help me to get some motivation.

What amazes me is that any one manages to what you're doing for any length of time. I think one or two nights is a lot worse than every night, because your body clock is constantly readjusting. I couldn't do it; I take my hat off to you. Working nights is bound to make you feel like this, and I really don't think you would feel the same about day work, if you were getting regular sleep at night.

Doesn't sound silly at all. Why don't you see your GP and get yourself signed off sick for a while?

If you've got no go with anything you might be depressed. He could prescribe some anti-depressants and maybe refer you for some counselling.

Oh I feel for you. I am a nurse and I used to feel like this about nights, to the point that I would be sobbing the day I was due to start nights. This was before I had my son and worked full time. I decided to stop feeling guilty about not wanting to do nights. It is bloody hard work, staying up all night especially when you have a little one to look after. I decided that when my son was born enough was enough. I now do one shift a week and not always a night, so I only do say a couple a month. Is there anyway you could drop to one shift a week and maybe do the odd dayshift as well? Could you split your nights, would that help? You must try and be kind to yourself as life is too short. I will never go back to doing full time shift work as it was just getting me down. Maybe a wee trip to your GP to tell him/her how you feel?

I only do lates (till midnight) twice a week and I hate it most of the time.

you know you can get signed off late
shifts if they are adversly affecting you...