I don't even know how to start this but I know I need help.
In 2020/21 the place I am living in (not uk) experience Covid as did the rest of the world. As a teacher this was extremely stressful, as it was for all other jobs. I had angry parents combatting me as i tried to navigate through the technology requirements. My teacher buddy was never doing her share so I was constantly getting email from her angry parents. At the same time my sibling moved to the country for 2 years and expected me to spend every non working minute with her, so I basically never really had a minute for me. she also has regular conflicts with the parents and I'm always in the middle and have to listen to both sides ranting, whilst trying to calm angry parents of students. At the same time, one of my parents got diagnosed with a disease and my marriage was breaking down. This basically went on for about 2 years. I had several mental breakdowns and wanted to drive off a pier. The amount of stress was just too much. Since then, my hair has started to fall out and become dry, I've developed pigmentation and I've left my husband. I feel extremely depressed. Can't talk to anyone. I don't have friends. When I try speak to family they don't really know what to say. I feel so crap about myself mentally and the way I look, I work hard all week and sit on the couch and eat all weekend. I'm spiralling down further every day that passes and to be honest, I just don't know what to do. I don't have hobbies- with children and a full time job, I don't even have time for hobbies and if I did, I have no confidence. I want to feel better, I want to feel good about myself and get out there but I have a mental block. The therapists etc where I am cost about 100pound per hour, I can't afford that.
What can I do to help myself?