I don't know where to turn

[somebodyhelpme]

I have had pni for the last 10years on and off, (with each of my children), and this time I feel so low it hurts just being here, I don't have a good support network, although my dh tries, and i'm seeing the health visitor and doc, but my family and in laws are not helpful, and the friends I have are not close, except a couple but they also have problems, so I end up coming last. I hate feeling like theres nothing to lookforward to, and not even wanting to be in the same room as my kids, just spend all my time crying or trying not to, and the things that everyday life throws up just seem too much to deal with, sorry if that makes no sence, but just needed to say it

Awwwh, I've had some variety of depressive illness on and off for 20 years. It is awful when you feel so despondant and alone.

Thing is, you are recognising the problem which IME is half the battle. Mention this to your GP/HV, they may be able to offer some alternate help 9change meds etc etc.

You are worthwhile and are doing brilliangtly.

Take care

Thanks im not on meds at the moment as i'm breastfeeding and I had a really bad experience a while back with anti ds, I just feel like its never going to get better, and my kids deserve soo much more

Maybe the Doc can suggest something. I was put on sertroline while I was bfing DS (delayed PND at 8 mths) so it's not a definate no-no. Plus different ADs have different effects and one size definatley doesn't fit all.

Plus remember the concept of 'Good enough Mum' I was beating myself up that I should be offerring DS more but it wasn't until my GP mentioned that idea that I lightened up on myself.

You have an illness, if you had a broken leg, you would have no problem with a pot so accept any help the HV/GP offer

I have been refered to the community mental health team, but around here that takes ages, and I do have a great fear of going back onto ads, dont even feel good enough at the moment, just wish I could leave, but have nowhere to go.

Hello again...Hope you're feeling more positive today