At the end of my tether

[Whatcan1donow]

I didn't know where I should post this. But I just need to vent some where. I just feel so bored, stuck, frustrated, exhausted. I have a 3yo who i love but is hard hard work, I so want to be a good mum but I just don't have it in me. Everything is so so difficult. I do work and tbh it saves me I look forward to working and dread the weekends because it's just so shit and relentless and dull. Aware that sounds awful and I know I'm throwing myself to the wolves by saying that here. On the plus side maybe it will spur me on to take action because I'm absolutely done. I don't know how much longer I can do this

It is difficult. It is hard work. And relentless! Are you doing this on your own? Are there certain parts of it that are the worst?

3 year olds are hard work! Can you do some activities on a weekend that you can both enjoy and look forward to together? Just examples but I'm taking ds trampolining tomorrow, soft play with a friend and her little one Friday (nursery hols here) and on Saturday I've decided I want us to do something I'll enjoy more so we're having a trip to the Trafford Centre but whilst there we will have some dinner etc. I realise financially it can be tough sometimes but even going to morrisons for tea where kids eat free.... one less joh for you and some nice time out the house together?

No not on my own, though often ds wants only me so it can be tough.
Ds can have behavioral issues which means getting childcare is difficult and it's difficult for me to manage too. He's very demanding and hard to find things he enjoys doing

It’s hard when it’s you they want. Do you have a diagnosis and strategies for the issues? (DS was on high dose steroids at about that age and would bounce off the walls. And no. That’s not a metaphor. 🤦‍♀️)
Can you do anything out of the house for a a bit so you’re not an option?

It's hard work just to get him out the house. When I do he finds ways to misbehave and doesn't listen so outings are often very stressful. So we come back home and he plays up there too. I know he's bored and that's down to me but I just don't know what to do

Does he have any time at a childcare setting?

You need to find something he will be interested in doing and that will tire him out too. You'll get some rest then hopefully

He does he has nursery then separate wraparound for holidays. but even then I'm on edge as he's already been excluded from one setting and getting complaints where he is now. He's on a 'watch list' at nursery waiting to here back on ssupport and strategies. I often feel like I'm being told off. No diagnosis and health visitors don't think there's anything wrong.
You say yours was on steroids as this age, can I ask what for?