I honestly don't want to be here anymore because I feel nobody cares

[hannabanana11]

I've been going through a really difficult period of loneliness within the last few weeks. There's been so many bereavements in the last few months that I think that's what has triggered some of these feelings.

I always try to keep the bright side out and like to think I'm a good friend, but since my teenage years (I'm now late 30s) I've just had really bad luck with friendships, I've done the usual things like volunteering and joining things but only ever seem to make friendships that are surface level where I've always been the one to do most of the work.

The friends and family I do have are more like acquaintances and never want to meet up or even talk on the phone. Recently at a funeral of another loved one, I saw the effort everyone made and it just made me wish that people could have done that when the loved one in question was alive. I've just been feeling worse and worse lately and feel like if I disappeared sometimes that nobody would even care or notice

Yes, people would definitely care. You sound as if you are depressed, and it would be a good idea to see your GP.

You’re not on your own feeling like this. It’s tough feeling on the outside and as if you have no one x.
I might die in my sleep and be eaten by my dogs before anyone notices I’m gone. I was chatting earlier about trying (again) to get out and about mixing with people more but like you it’s always just superficial. Sorry I’ve no wise words or wisdom but you’re not on your own with this x

I don’t think you are alone in feeling like this. I do to an extent. But people do care, they just have their own struggles.

I feel this too. I think many gave periods of feeling this but it's a horrible place to be. Hugs x

I feel like this too
I wish I could say something helpful but can only say try the Samaritans - 116 123

The only friend who could help is gone and I'm quite angry because if I am found dead, people will act like they are shocked.

I tried to ask for help so many times. It would not be at all shocking but they would pretend they knew nothing! (Yes, I'm angry).

I hang on, follow music that matters to me, and hope for better days.

I think a lot of us feel like this at the mo. There has to be a tipping point where people want to actually interact with humans again, surely?

If not, I'll get a cat.

Thanks everyone for your kind replies. I'm so sorry that so many of us share these feelings. I will probably go to the doctor during the week just to talk things over. @EmmaEmerald you mirrored my exact thoughts to be honest. It gets tiring of being the one reaching out all the time and just getting blanked

@hannabanana11 And they post on social media about the importance of reaching out 🤷🏻‍♀️

I'm not sure if MN is reflective of society but so many of us on here feel like this.

I hope the doctor is helpful and obvs if you keep posting here, people will try to help.

Do you live alone OP and do you work?

@EmmaEmerald yes you're so right. Thanks for your kind wishes on the doctor

@RightMoaningHilda I live alone. My partner died at just 32 a few years ago
I'm an elderly carer

@hannabanana11 hope you're hanging in there 💐

I’m so sorry for your loss @hannabanana11 . It isn’t surprising that you are struggling when you have had so much to deal with over the last few years. Are you getting any help with your mental health?

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
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@RightMoaningHilda thanks for your kind words. I'm going to speak to My gp in the next few days and also look into therapy again

Hi OP, how are you today? I’ve had a good few days probably because I’ve been out of the house a bit more. Still don’t feel much connection with people though - all superficial. Hope you’re still hanging in there

@Sletty . Thank you ❤ I too have been trying to get out of the house more and do things. Like you, it's just superficial but I find at least I'm not stuck inside. Hope you're doing ok