I am not OK. I haven't really been OK since my husband got sick during in lockdown and then died. I looked after him at home, pretty much on my own for the last few months because the services just weren't there to help out. I am now a single parent to a small child with complex medical needs and I am not OK. People think I am. I give off a good impression of being alright but I am not. Life seems to have lurched from one crisis to another since DH died and I am just so tired of it all. I have no faith at all in my GP surgery or the doctors there and no other local practice is accepting new patients, I did have some counselling in the early days but right now I have no-one to look after my child if I were to be offered more sessions. I just feel so alone and so bleak.