PND and suicidal

[flowerpot258]

Baby is 5 weeks. I have 2 other kids. Oldest is 9, other is nearly 2.

I've not been diagnosed with PND but since I've just had a baby I assume it'll be classed as that. I could be wrong.

I've already spoken to the doctor and I'm on anti depressants. Husband keeps urging me to go and speak to someone. I have an appointment with the CPN in a few days.

Nights are the worst with the sleep deprivation and I'm ready to end it all. I've had these thoughts for at least a week now. It's not just the sleep deprivation but that's definitely not helping the whole situation.

Husband keeps telling me to call nhs 24 but what can they really do apart from arrange therapy. I've not harmed myself so far and I can't see them doing anything until I actually did something and needed medical attention.

I suppose what I'm asking is what to do in this situation? Is it worth giving someone a Call or do I just wait and speak to the CPN or HV? Will they even do anything? I feel like I'm beyond speaking to someone about all this. If counselling is the only thing they can offer then it's a waste of time. I do feel I need some kind of help but I'm just not sure 'talking therapy' will be useful.

I wake up from very little sleep and wish I never woke up at all.

Well done op, keep reaching out for help when you need it

Thank you everyone for your support. My head isn't straight enough to reply individually to everyone but I have had a look at all the links that were posted and will reach out to them.

@myheadisaterribleplace - I got a call back from a CPN who advised me to go to A&E and speak to the mental health team. Honestly, I wouldn't say they were that helpful really. I was left to wait in A&E for 2 hours before they came down to get me. I told them everything face to face about how I've been feeling including the suicidal stuff and they're just going to write a report about what was said today and send it to the GP. That's pretty much it. It could have been a phone call.

I'm going to make an appointment with GP tomorrow and discuss medication, either another increase in my dose or an alternative.

I'm going to speak to my health visitor about everything. The mental health team from the hospital said she would be able to refer me to perinatal support which i think might be more helpful as they will deal with PND and everything pregnancy and baby related.

I've read that CBT might be good so I will ask about that aswell x

You dh needs to take emergency leave from work for at least two weeks and do every night so you can sleep.

This. He needs to understand how serious the situation is and act accordingly.

Definitely this

How are you getting on today @flowerpot258 ?

@RightMoaningHilda - I'm feeling okay today. Not saying I'm back to normal but today was definitely a good day for me.

Spoke to a nurse practitioner today. The woman I spoke to wasn't helpful and actually quite patronising and condescending.

No negative thoughts today

Did I say 'today' enough. Oops

😂

Hi OP. Glad you have had a good day. Please keep talking and sharing. Can you open up to any friends about how you have been feeling? It really can make a world of difference, your friends will know you well and care about you a lot. Take care