Suicidal 2 weeks ago, now fine?

[LtBenson]

Hi, 2 weeks ago, I was feeling extremely suicidal and I took steps but didn't go through with it. I called for help, confided in a colleague, and did all the 'right' things.

Now, after a lot of talking, etc, I feel fine, like it was all a dream. Is this possible? Even yesterday, I felt depressed and anxious, but today, all is well.

If anyone has any experience, I'd love to hear. Thanks

In my own experience, this isn’t unusual. I’ve had periods of suicidal ideation that have lasted long periods, and some that have lasted only a short time. I suppose it depends on how the illness is at the time, triggers etc.

I HATE to say this, but where are you in your cycle pressuming you are female? I get this a lot…normally around day 20-24 of my cycle

I don’t see the point of being here, I feel everyone will be better off without me and I eat for England!

I have been getting like this about 4 days before my period in the last year or so, possibly longer. I saw a news report about a woman who had been treated for PMDD, and will try to see a GP about it at some point. It's frightening when it happens, and seems unbelievable afterwards.

I hope you find a long-term solution, OP.

How were you two weeks before you felt suicidal? Emotions, moods, feelings can change very quickly.

I was going to say PMDD too.
I get like this in certain parts of my cycle and I am absolutely adamant my whole family would be better off without me and each time I think I should just do it because I will come back to that feeling again and then Im fine and back to “normal” a week later. It’s horrible.

Tbf when I was younger I occasionally had that type of thing but it came as fast as it went? I'm 50 and peri now so I don't think so.

This time I had been depressed for a while, I had put it down to christmas/ny and hoped I'd feel better afterwards. But I didn't, until today.

Thanks for all the replies though.

Any different medication? Steroids make me suicidal. My ex once had the same reaction to some antibiotics.

Good question about medication. TMI but i had anti biotics for something in between Xmas and new year and it seemed to create other issues (my PH balance being one of them)

i am glad you have posted now you are out the other side x

No medication, I had an appointment booked with the GP for last week as I knew I was sliding back into a serious depression. Its the miraculous recovery that is confusing me.

OP, you know yourself better than a bunch of strangers on the Internet, and if you don't feel this is hormonal, you are probably right.

Having said that, and more to the other PPs who recognise the PMDD feelings I mentioned, I am 49 and probably in a fairly as-yet symptom-free peri, and I believe that my experience of PMDD started within the last year or so. It was only a few months ago that I realised there was relationship between the extreme mood changes and my cycle. It's not unusual for me to be irritable, TBH, but this is something else 😐

Another vote for PMMd here …
can be relevant in peri - often more so

Absolutely OP, a few weeks ago I had a day when I felt suicidal..wasn’t going to act on it but I definitely felt like I wanted to die. I was in a very bad place mentally-the worst I’d felt in a long time. The next day I managed to get out and go to see a friend with my children and I felt like a different person. Thought my trigger was not being able to leave the house over Christmas due to my sen son refusing to go out (single mum here). I was a lot better
for the next few days but I’m defo struggling with my mood and anxiety again. Really glad you’re doing ok. Bad mental health can be so debilitating x