Postgrad triggering anxiety/panic attacks

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I didn’t know whether to put this here or in education.

Basically I started a postgrad course in September. It involves 2 days uni and 2 days practice.

I am considered to be quite clever, but I am absolutely flailing. I have a second assignment due at 4pm today and I have been up all night with anxiety and panic attacks. Literally not an ounce of sleep. I have started on propranolol but it is not helping. I have already got an extension for this, so that isn’t an option again.

I just don’t know what to do. If I fail I lose my job. I have two young DCs so juggling that too. But I just feel so stupid - I should be able to do this.
Don’t really know what I’m asking. I just need to get it finished and in but I can’t focus.

I've been where you are, on more than 1 course.

Today is not for thinking about your worries about the course or your job or any consequences. You'll deal with that another day.

Today, you want to take a shower, have a glass of water, a cup of tea or coffee, then spend 20 minutes writing a plan. You can grit your teeth and produce something, and submit it by the deadline. It doesn't matter that it won't be your best work. Today you just need to get your head down and produce something that's 'good enough'.

Good luck, and do update us tonight.

Thank you @skilpadde.m that has really helped.
Feel like I’m the only one struggling but I know deep down it’s probably not the case.

I am considering emailing my tutor. Just don’t feel like I can do this. I am in complete panic mode

Can you call your GP surgery to see if you can get an urgent appointment? A fit note and possibly a few days of medication might help get you out of your panic phase.

And then see if you can contact student support, or whatever it is that your university/college offers.

What’s the title of the assignment? Maybe we can help a bit 👀