Either inactive and depressed or overstimulated and stressed

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I feel like I spend my time either inactive and depressed or overstimulated and stressed. I don't know how to feel OK.

I was sick over Xmas so haven't started back with exercising first thing in the morning so partly I'm just missing the endorphins from that. But I feel like it's so difficult in life to feel just OK. I feel like if I let my self care slip even a tiny bit Im depressed.

I enjoy my work but I have a habit of over booking my work and then I'm on the road to burnout. I do like pilates and yoga but it's effort to do those things and again if I do it too much then I get sick. If I'm sick I have to stay in but how do you not feel depressed when you can't exercise?

I feel like it's the same with my social life. Ice got lots of friends but if I see them too much then im exhausted. So I stay in and feel depressed.

I spoke to my GP about me suspecting I have inattentive ADHD but he said there's no where to refer me to and if I go private they won't do shared care with the provider, so I'm stuck. I'm not even certain this is ADHD.

Any advice is appreciated. I see a counsellor fortnightly.

Sounds like ME/CFS? I have been diagnosed with this and it resonates with what you have described.
I have periods where I'm over simulated so I do too much. Physically and mentally. This leads to burnout where I then crash for days and sometimes weeks.

This is familiar to me! I'd love to tell you my diagnosis but it's all in dispute. However, the diagnoses I've had in the past include OCD, GAD, depression and ADHD and I am about to have an autism assessment. I relate to ADHD the most though.

I tend to do this too. Balance is a struggle. Practising meditation or other ways to just be in the moment. Self compassion and acceptance too, much better than hunting for labels and diagnoses.