I have been at my job for 1 year.some days it's unbearable.
It's well known within the workplace that we have one person in management who isn't great to be around, they're only in a few days a week. They are leading in their role and helping push profits, a close family member of theirs is also their line manager. They speak to people awfully and openly bitch about colleagues to the people they manage, eg. They'd bitch and be negative about me to a colleague A, then to colleague b about A, you get the idea.
Another person, continuosly shit stirs and winds others up and slyly starts causing issues then joins forces with person 1 to work as a team to alienate and then say they're the victims when challenged. I have only had one issue with them, which I stood my ground on and handled externally quite well, internally and at home I sobbed.
I am stuck in this environment some days are good. Others are awful.
I can't sleep because I'm anxious what the day will be tomorrow. I know I'm being scrutinized and active attempts to be brought into drama, either targeted at me or another colleague.
I'm so tense, the lack of sleep, low mood, over eating... If I spoke to my GP, I know he would sign me off work.
The worry of that is preventing me going to see him. I'm worried about the whispering and comments at work, the shit storm my work would be in and the time and effort to rectify it on my return, no one else knows how to do aspects of my job (people have left the company recently), that's without the loss of pay on top.its all accumulated to stop me going to see my GP.
I have been looking for a new job, but I have debts, have young kids, bills to pay and things are so tight right now, savings are gone too. I can't just leave and take any job. Which prior to having kids I would have.
I'm not sure what I need/expect from posting. I feel somewhat better getting it all written down