OCD?

[Ikeatears]

Dh had a heart attack in November. He's doing well and ready to phase back to work.
I am spiralling. I struggled to sleep when he first had it and now I have to keep asking if he's ok. If I don't say it to him, I usually have to be touching him in some way when I ask, I become really anxious and convince myself he won't be ok because I haven't asked him.
I have a mh nurse appointment on Thursday and the go has given me short course of sleeping tablets. I have a long mh history of depression and anxiety but I've been so well for about 3 years now. I hate how I feel on antidepressants.
I've never had (or recognised that I've had) these obsessive thoughts and actions before. Can anyone give advice?

Sorry to hear that. The good thing is that you can recognise it as OCD so that's half the battle. It depends how bad it is and how much you feel you can cope with it. Sometimes it may require medication sometimes not in my opinion.

It's still very early days after what happened to your DH so understandably you had a shock. Speaking to a doctor can't hurt.

Is it OCD? I didn't think I'd ever had this before, but maybe, when I look back...
I'm so scared. I don't know how to stop it