This is all began when my husband started drinking and partying. Completely neglected parental duties, wouldn’t speak to me anymore and then left. It’s been awful
after that I’ve had so much car trouble, financial strain etc one thing after another.
One Thing that got me through was my job, I loved it working in a hospital ward supporting very mentally unwell people. Then something terrible happens, I fell asleep on nightshift. I was mortified so at the end of the shift I told the person I was on with how sorrry I was and how terrible it was.
They reported me which was ok, but this started everyone calling me, mostly people that I’ve watched sleep hours at times. People became patronising talking down to me, a complete lack of professional respect.
I was aware I was hot gossip. It was so bad coming into work, I was panicking suffering anxiety and tearful. I had been so happy and loved the people I was working with.
I have been told Maise we are not your friends, then I overheard them literally verbally ripping me to shreads. Calling me alsorts, saying they hate me, wish I would leave the job, can’t bear to be near me, she’s this that the other. I was so shoocked as minutes before they were so so lovely. It just confirmed everything.
I’ve had to call my boss and say I just cannot face them. I am completely worried about facing them and the rest. I’ve been told I’m just to nice, too soft, people will walk al over you as it’s your personality, I’m not right for the job, my career I’ve worked so hard for, I’m a nurse, saying I’ve been too open with colleagues, I’ve not known in what way as they have also discussed relationships and so much that I’ve supported them with.
Theae are colleagues I’ve had weekends away with, lots of nights out, they have stayed at my house and me at theirs. I thought of them as friends good friends.
I heard them say I was disgusting, disgraceful falling asleep, need to leave, should be sacked it’s all been like one person says one thing and it spreads until over 8 people are all saying it. They said I was unstable, I asked why is that exactly as that’s a serious allergations, they said well your chaotic, I asked in what way?? They then said after some thought you always lose your car keys, your cars always breaking down so much happens to you that doesn’t happen to other people. This was three young nurses who now eye roll, tutt, and tell me I can’t do certain things as I’m incapable.
previous to being reported and investigated for falling asleep they all respected me and treat me well.
i also heard them say some awful things about a couple of lovely colleagues that are good people. I just couldn’t believe it.
So now I am so worried I am only able to get 6 weeks sick pay but the thought of going back there makes me unwell
ive been so humiliated, they even made it clear I wouldn’t be going to the Xmas party and made sure I worked the shifts. I did so but just felt humiliated if il
honest.
I feel so lonely and so so low. I’m worried about money, I have children, I miss my old life, I just don’t know what to do anymore.