Does it ever actually get better?

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I've NC for this. I ended my marriage at the start of the year. I confided in a colleague who had recently been divorced and ending up falling for him. I feel so stupid for getting so attached and being so deluded. We talked everyday, spent every spare minute we could together. He gave me a key to his house. Then he ended it over text. I couldn't and still can't get over it. I attempted to end my life a few months ago. I saw a crisis nurse who was completely useless and had my medication increased. I'm back at work now and have to see him everyday. I feel so vulnerable. At least once, but usually several times a day, I think about suicide. Everyone tells me things will get better and I have so much to live for but I just feel so broken and fed up of trying to put a smile on my face everyday. So when, if ever, do things get better? I don't want to upset my family but I'm so tired of feeling like this.

Hi sorry to hear you are so down and unhappy. Don't add to it by giving yourself a hard time. It's not your fault your crush had a rubbish character!
Yes it does and it will get better. Can you afford any therapy because the therapist can be your supporter/ advisor/ role model / parent figure until you feel more steady.
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It absolutely will get better, you are just stuck in the ditch right now

If you can possibly afford therapy (there is probably a low cost option near you) that will help with working through it. Your GP can refer you to but that can take a while.

also have a Google for online and local post divorce support groups - there might be a meet up group near you

Also might be worth taking to your GP about medication

I am sorry you are going through this, this time next year honestly you will feel a lot better

Sending love to you. Try to keep yourself safe by surrounding yourself with friends and family and it will get better.

I attempted to take my life in march this year, I have bipolar disorder type 1. I had a new medication added and my other one increased which helped,but the thing that has helped the most was a week long intensive therapy unit. I went there daily. I was offered this instead of being sectioned. It maybe worth speaking to your gp about it it was called ATS. I am now on a weekly therapy course for 2 hours each Monday. Things will get better. Sending hugs