Just so tired and down about everything

[WantOutOfRatRace]

I'm exhausted. I'm stressed.

Fundamentally, I'm sick of being a single parent juggling a full time career that I hate and house stuff and stuff with the kids. I changed jobs a couple of months ago and the hours are longer than I expected (including being out of the house more so less opportunity to pop a load of washing in, etc) . The Ex-husband is unreliable so I'm always trying to juggle things and having plans go wrong.

In theory I earn good money but in reality, the payrises over the last 5 years have made very little difference. Sure, it's been enough to buy a few meals out and stuff without having to count every penny, but I still can't afford to fix the house up. Everyone I work with is in a couple and can afford to buy all sorts so I'm feeling like I don't really fit in.

And I'm fucking lonely. The couple of friends I have don't seem to understand. They say I should be happy I earn good money and other people have it far worse. And they're right...but I just can't seem to snap out of this slump where I can't see any point in anything

I’m sorry you’re struggling right now but it’s understandable with everything you’re juggling.

It sounds like you’re burnt out. When I’m exhausted, I easily feel overwhelmed and spiral quite quickly. The mind doesn’t care how much you earn, so while you might be fortunate financially, it doesn’t mean you’re not entitled to feel rubbish and receive support from friends.

Have you considered a few sessions with a therapist (privately)? Sometimes just voicing your struggles to someone is enough to gain some perspective or strength.