I knew I was traumatised but when the therapist showed me my PTSD score which is almost two times higher than the level of clinical concern, and way above the level of 'significant enough to suppress immune system even 10 years after the event', it made me think!
I am exhausted. I feel like I haven't slept or eaten properly for months, and there is an ongoing situation at home which keeps re-traumatising me (I am talking to therapist about possible ways to resolve it / put boundaries in place). I put one foot in front of the other because I have experienced trauma before and it's not new to me, so perhaps is a bit normalised in my head. I mentioned it to my manager at work as a 'heads up' but haven't formulated yet for myself what is a reasonable ask for support at work. I work full time, remote. Work itself doesn't stress me out at all, but I find it hard to manage life around it, because everything is extra hard and it feels like there is no time for self care.
I'm thinking maybe to go to GP and formalise it and to go with their recommendation. But it just seems like yet another task that I have so little energy for. Personally I am torn whether to go with a few weeks off sick to have a proper go at recovery, or ask for some form of time off longer term, e.g. one day a week for 6 months or something.
Has anyone been in a similar situation and how did you manage it? Thanks.