Given up on life

[Lost73142]

I have nothing left to live for. I've lost everything -job, kids, family and close to losing my home. I'm scared of dying but I have a plan and I'm 99% sure I'll go through with it.

Why have you lost everything? Is it repairable? Don’t make a permanent decision over a temporary situation.

OP , what's happened to make you feel like way?

"This way"

Is there anyone with you?

Please call 116 123

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

When one of our users feels this way we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real-life help and support as well.

Some further support links:

NHS: Where to get urgent help for mental health
NHS: Looking after your mental health
MIND: Coping with mental health problems during coronavirus

CALM: The Campaign Against Living Miserably
NHS: Help for suicidal thoughts

We hope things look a little brighter for you soon.

Very best wishes from MNHQ.

I've lost everything because I'm a failure, always have been. It's not repairable. I'm alone. I'm always alone. I have nothing and no one. I don't want this life anymore.

Your not alone we are all here to listen.
Talk some more we are listening

I have nothing else to say. My mind is empty. My emotions are numb. I've given up.

My mind is empty. My emotions are numb.

Can you accept that this is a temporary situation? That this is your mind enforcing a shut down to allow you to escape from the trauma you're going through? It's not permanent. You will have emotions again. You will feel again, and you will have hope and happiness again as you have in the past.

Please reach out to the Samaritans now. Call 116 123. You don't have to explain anything other than you need help. Please.

I am here to hold your hand too OP. If you can keep going a bit longer then things will change and improve.

Life is very hard but the world needs you in it.

I can't keep going. My plan is no one will find me. No one will miss me, until the bills don't get paid, but I have enough in my bank for 3 months.

We will miss you on this thread Lost.

It may be hard for you to realise but there will be people in your life who will miss you. We are all connected at some level.

Its good advice to call the Samaritans 116 123. I’ve called them before and I would call them again if I needed to.

I don't want to call anyone. I have in the past and ended up in hospital, which made me feel worse.

Thats very understandable but it doesn’t mean that you would end up in hospital this time, or if you did it doesn’t mean that you would feel worse.

I know how hard it is to think rationally or optimistically at these dark times.

Did you manage to get some sleep? How are you feeling this morning?

lost how are you doing today ?

I'm still feeling the same. Even after 2 awful nights in hospital. I just can't carry on like this anymore.

I'm really sorry to hear this, OP. It sounds like life has dealt you a series of blows that have flattened you.

So rest. Be nice to yourself. Treat yourself like you would if you were ill, and spoil yourself a little, until you start to feel a bit better.

Is there someone to help you with the situation with your house ? Or somewhere you can get advice ?

Sorry to hear that you’ve been in hospital, have they been able to tweak any medication or refer you for some support of some sort?

In terms of carrying on, the advice above about being nice to yourself is about right - you’ve had a hospital stay so you need some rest and recuperation. Don’t think too far into the future, just get through hour by hour. Minute by minute if needs be. It’s shit but sometimes it’s part of the process.

Sometimes what looks like more pain is actually part of the recovery process.

No I wasn't referred for any support and my medication has stayed the same. I'm supposed to be seeing my LP from CMHT today but she has not turned up in the past so I can't rely on that. My social worker is coming on Friday, but she's the one trying to get me to leave my home and go into supported accommodation. I can't deal with any more loss after losing so much else already.

I can’t compute what LP stands for, but guessing some sort of support worker? Let us know if she turns up and whether she’s of of any use.

I can see why you’d not want to leave your home although I suppose the social worker has her reasons for thinking that supported accommodation may help you?

Must admit I’m feeling pretty rubbish myself today so I am currently hiding under a blanket but I am telling myself that it will pass.

I wish I had more to offer - a magic wand to make it all better would be good. Please know that people care about you and also that you’re not alone in feeling the way you do. Let’s keep going.

LP stands for lead practitioner also called a care coordinator in some places. She did turn up yesterday but I spent most of the visit crying.

She said I've for to find alternative ways of coping, but everything anyone has suggested just doesn't work. I can't think of anything other than my plan. Today feels like a good day to go through with it.

Please know you are not alone. I am in a bad place too but please breathe and call anyone or speak to someone for support. Please let us know you are ok

Thank you for explaining what LP means @Lost73142

I hope you have been able to keep yourself safe today.

Ive been reading about how mental illness itself makes you think and remember selectively. It really is a cruel illness. Are you possibly able to recognise that it is the illness making you think in a certain way?