I feel anxious and don’t know how to face life

[raspberryjuiceandpompoms]

I’m the kind of person that others call ‘unflappable’, always smiley and calm but I’m really struggling. I feel so anxious about future it’s hard to hold back tears. I can’t bear the thought of my kids growing up and getting hurt (by relationships etc). I’m worried about them being happy, fit in, find their own way. Worried about my health my DH’s health… about money, about my appearance (I feel so ungracious and ugly - I don’t recognise myself in the mirror). I feel like I’m a terrible wife, a horrible irritable mother, really bad friend and bad daughter. I feel detached from reality like everything is happening to ‘my body’ and not me and I doubt it will ever get better. I feel alone. No, I am alone - I can’t vent to anyone. I have to hide what I’m feeling because I feel like im being judged. My husband always taking the high moral horse and my mum with her voodoo 5d Earth thing.. I don’t know what’s the point of my post… Has anyone felt the same? Does it get better with time?

I feel the same a lot of the time. I go in and out of this. Unfortunately I don’t have any advice. I have wondered if it’s worth getting anti depressants

This sounds like hormones to me are you peri menopausal

Oh @Reginaldperrin I’m sorry you feel this way, I wouldnt wish it my worst enemy… I thought about antidepressants too. Or CBT. Or some sort of self help course. Surely it’s just too miserable to exist like this, in this cycle… I kind of don’t like to admit that there’s a problem though.

@Quitelikeit I’m in my late 30s so might be! If this is what it’s like I’m dreading to think what menopause is going to be like. I’d be a total loonatic…

I felt like this several times in my life and tried therapy and CBT but the only thing which makes it better is anti anxiety meds, I have citalopram and works so well for me. You don’t have to feel like this, please go and see your Dr.x

Likwise@raspberryjuiceandpompoms .I hope that we can find some kind of solution.

I feel like the current / last few years in terms of news has made things worse. Cost of living / covid / wars, and then rhrow on top kids, parents getting older, increasing health concerns .

Like you it seems, I seemingly take all this stuff in my stride. I seem easy going and happy, and together. Except Im not (or at least I have this giant burden that Im carrying).

I feel like my life is like a house of cards. I feel incredibly emotionally fragile on the inside, and dont think it would take much for me to just fall apart. A lot of the times I feel like im desperately paddling under the water just to keep afloat. Im constantly worrying about something or other and its utterly exhausting.

I should probably speak to the GP, but im managing most of the time so I just dont bother.