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Think I'm having a breakdown

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idioteque · 31/10/2023 01:04

That basically.

I've always suffered with anxiety and depression but recently the stress I've been going through is extreme. I'm finding I'm struggling to function at all - I can barely walk up the stairs.

I'm having fertility struggles which is constantly there, chronic ocd, chronic stress from the ocd, my brain won't shut up it's driving me mad. I'm living second to second catastrophising and thinking what if all the time.

I think I've just finally snapped.

Has anyone else snapped?

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garlictwist · 31/10/2023 02:39

I'm afraid I am too. It's 230am and I'm wide awake feeling awful with my mental health. Mine is health related and I'm sick and tired of it. I'm so sorry you're going through the same thing. I don't have any answers but can be a friend in the night.

4catsaremylife · 31/10/2023 02:43

I can sympathize off sick for a month, never had any problems in my 6 decades.
Worked full time stressful job, looking after multiple family members. I always coped.
Right up until I didn't...
Started gradually, I felt overwhelmed, couldn't switch off at night, stopped being able to look forward to things.
Eventually it was like life was in black and white, and I had nothing to look forward to.
I couldn't do the most simple tasks even making a drink was overwhelming.

I'm starting to come out the other end now planning to go back to work soon and thinking about Christmas, but

absolutelyhadit · 31/10/2023 10:49

Yes me. The stress I'm feeling right now is making me unable to even speak on occasions.

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idioteque · 31/10/2023 10:53

Oh I'm so pleased I'm not alone. I think I've just finally had enough of all of the stress and shit.

I want to go on holiday but I'm terrified the breakdown will come with me too.

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Ukholidaysaregreat · 31/10/2023 11:00

Sending hugs to you all. I know mental health support is not that great in this country at the moment but could it be worth seeing a doctor and getting some medication? Also charities like Mind have lots of good, free support to help people with mental health issues. 💐

absolutelyhadit · 31/10/2023 11:01

idioteque · 31/10/2023 10:53

Oh I'm so pleased I'm not alone. I think I've just finally had enough of all of the stress and shit.

I want to go on holiday but I'm terrified the breakdown will come with me too.

I feel like this too. I want to run away but I know that would devastate my children.

I'm not sure what the answer is. How do you cope when there's no way of getting rid of the stress?

Saltandvinegarsquares30 · 31/10/2023 11:09

Yes 2 months ago I hit a real wall. Very similar experience to @4catsaremylife . I'm a medical professional and was just too scared to go into work so was signed off. I did go on holiday as I had one booked but it wasn't great, would be different now.
I'm NHS so I did engage with all help available but there wasn't alot bar initial crisis chats and on a waiting list. I did get some counselling through my union tho and I've found a mindset life coach very helpful. I did alot of self help, listened to podcasts and I use an NHS app each day (a bit like Mind) which was very helpful. I also went back on a low dose of anti depressants and have done alot of exercise.this all seems to have pulled me out of a really dark place and I've got a new job which I'm hoping will suit me better. Just need to keep myself busy until I start!!

It's very difficult but you can pull yourself out of it x

absolutelyhadit · 31/10/2023 22:57

How are you tonight @idioteque?

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idioteque · 31/10/2023 22:59

@absolutelyhadit

Thank you for asking. Im not too bad - got racing thoughts and feel weak but I'm trying to concentrate on tv and avoid going to bed 🥲. I thought I'd hit rock bottom a while ago but clearly I had further to go!

How are you tonight? X

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Squirrelsnut · 31/10/2023 23:04

I've been there. It was bloody awful. Fluoxetine saved me.

absolutelyhadit · 31/10/2023 23:12

idioteque · 31/10/2023 22:59

@absolutelyhadit

Thank you for asking. Im not too bad - got racing thoughts and feel weak but I'm trying to concentrate on tv and avoid going to bed 🥲. I thought I'd hit rock bottom a while ago but clearly I had further to go!

How are you tonight? X

Feeling a lot better than I did this morning. Think I need to start going to bed a lot earlier though and organising some "me" time.

absolutelyhadit · 31/10/2023 23:13

idioteque · 31/10/2023 22:59

@absolutelyhadit

Thank you for asking. Im not too bad - got racing thoughts and feel weak but I'm trying to concentrate on tv and avoid going to bed 🥲. I thought I'd hit rock bottom a while ago but clearly I had further to go!

How are you tonight? X

A good zone out on the tv always helps

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idioteque · 31/10/2023 23:15

@Squirrelsnut

When I was on fluoxetine it seemed to send me a bit wappy and hyper so I was taken off it.

I tried Sertraline after but that gave me awful stomach problems.

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idioteque · 31/10/2023 23:16

@absolutelyhadit

I'm terrible for going to sleep early too - what time do you normally go? I'm pushing 2/3am at the minute which is ridiculous.

I'm pleased you're feeling better this evening xx

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idioteque · 01/11/2023 10:20

I'm
Bad again today. Can't get out of bed. Feel so depressed.

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absolutelyhadit · 01/11/2023 16:01

idioteque · 31/10/2023 23:16

@absolutelyhadit

I'm terrible for going to sleep early too - what time do you normally go? I'm pushing 2/3am at the minute which is ridiculous.

I'm pleased you're feeling better this evening xx

Usually midnight but I could probably sleep well before that but I have to stay up with my son.

absolutelyhadit · 01/11/2023 16:01

idioteque · 01/11/2023 10:20

I'm
Bad again today. Can't get out of bed. Feel so depressed.

So sorry to hear this - how are you this afternoon?

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idioteque · 01/11/2023 16:12

@absolutelyhadit

A little better thank you. I've got to take my dogs to the vets so I have no choice but to go.
I'm still trying to convince myself to go on holiday (not been for 5 years other than a few days in the lakes).

Do you go on holiday much?

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JamSandle · 01/11/2023 18:32

I'm also having my mental health kick my arse at the moment. Haven't gotten out of bed in two days. I hope you're okay OP.

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TheWestfoldFell · 01/11/2023 19:13

Snap...pun intended....or almost

Currently going through a divorce. STBXH has just told me today when I got in from work that he probably won't be able to get another mortgage to buy me out. I'm stuck 😞

absolutelyhadit · 01/11/2023 23:09

idioteque · 01/11/2023 16:12

@absolutelyhadit

A little better thank you. I've got to take my dogs to the vets so I have no choice but to go.
I'm still trying to convince myself to go on holiday (not been for 5 years other than a few days in the lakes).

Do you go on holiday much?

No. Try to get away once a year but doesn't always work out.

MovingAnxiety · 01/11/2023 23:21

What app did you use @Saltandvinegarsquares30 ?

MrsNK28 · 01/11/2023 23:24

I feel so misreable this couple months but these days i see lots of palestinian gaza people, children died in war crime in social media. I feel ashamed. I feel my life much better than them. Why do i need to feel miserable?. But i still feel like shit tho. I feel selfish and i feel i should be grateful at least i’m not afraid my house will get bombed every minutes.