Hi OP
I've been diagnosed by a NHS mental health nurse as having complex trauma (chaotic and frightening childhood). I've had anxiety and/or depression for years. Also a bit of OCD as well. I've had prozac for it and whilst it certainly numbed my feelings it obviously does not cure it.
I'm meant to be getting clinical psychotherapy on the NHS but it's taking ages.
In the meantime I discovered a guy on youtube (I know) but honestly he is really good. It's called The Two Mind Method. The guy basically used to be like me and through years of therapy, reading and other methods he has gotten well.
His videos are just excellent and I really recommend them. They are not glitzy - just a bloke sitting talking but they make so much sense to me. In fact they sometimes have me in tears.
According to him anxiety is basically just a fancy word for 'fear'.
It usually comes from having an insecure attachment caused by a less than ideal childhood.
I know he has a videos about people who are anxiously attached (don't know if that is how you would describe yourself).
Anyway his channel is about our 'two' minds. Our thinking mind which is what we use to do day to day stuff ie our jobs, our housework, errands etc. Then we all have another mind (also known as our subconcious or our inner child). This one controls the emotions.
Anyway I have watched you tube for years and only recently did I bother to subscribe as I wanted to be able to comment and like his videos.
In years of watching you tube his videos must be some of the best content I have ever seen on trauma, insecure attachment, anxiety, destructive relationship patterns etc.
I hope they help you.