Throughout my 20s I was a people pleaser, went way too above and beyond for people who would barely glance up to say "hello" in the morning. I would desperately dress for male attention, giggle at men in the hopes they might chuck a compliment my way to make me feel better about myself. I would stalk people on facebook who I went to school with an jump for joy when the girls that bullied me where now trying to do "join my business of selling slim fast coffee, make 100k in your first week" or some rubbish like that.
But now I have just woken up to the fact that none of it mattered. The petty squables you have in your 20's, the bitching, self doubting, dieting, forced socialising ways need to stop. I am a mother of 2, I have been married for 7 years and my priority is my family. As long as we are safe, fed, under the same roof at night the rest of the stupid stuff can stay on the other side of the door. I have chosen to move on from some friendships recently because their immaturity is stopping me progressing. The anxiety I used to feel round others has since made me realise that it was my body shouting how big a red flag it was. Nobody you class as a friend should make you feel uncomfortable just by being around them. I take pics with my kids without filters now, I embrace the messy house, I am more picky with who I spend my time with, I make an effort for me and how I want to dress, not dress for others.
If you feel in a rut, just take the bull by the horns and live life as if each day is your last day, tomorrow is never promised.