I don’t want to be here anymore.

[Greetingswecomeinpeace]

That’s it really.
There’s no major catastrophic event.
I just can’t see the point of struggling through another 40 years or so of meh.
Ive felt like it for years but it has become increasingly loud in my head over the last few years. It used to come and go because I did have enjoyment of some things but now I don’t really and so it never goes away.
It all feels so pointless. I don’t think I know anyone who is happy - or even content - which probably adds to that feeling.
The fact there’s nothing in particular that’s ‘wrong’ makes it very hard to fix. I think it would be easier if there was a specific reason, iyswim.

You always have that option, as does everyone (with the caveat of how you think you can forward 'manage' the heartache, shock and recriminations of those left behind).

If there was the possibility of a level of enjoyment of life that would make you want to put off that action, what would it look like?

Are there people in your life that bring you joy? I think you are viewing life through the lense of depression and it feels pointless but if you were truly well you would feel different?
Have you seen a Dr?

I understand you're feeling the pointlessness of it all, is that it? You know, we can all get sucked into this even when there's no obvious reason.

If you had to change just one small thing in your life, what would you do?