Terrified - please help

[NotAscoob]

I have severe anxiety disorder, ocd, panic attacks, emetophobia. I am an internal mess. Other factors too add to my anxiety but it’s too outing and too triggering to discuss.

I don’t know what else to do. My drs were great. Then they stopped contact completely and my lovely Dr who used to check in on me regularly stopped contact with me four months ago. They haven’t left the surgery as I checked . I have a monthly dose of citilopram. 10mg.

I am pretending to take it. Truth is I haven’t started it.

I desperately need help. I am such a mess and it’s getting worse. I am so so so so scared to take the medicine: side effects sound horrendous etc etc .

Please can someone help me.

Hey,

I think it’s really important your open with your doctors about your situation. They have probably stopped following up with you as they would expect the meds to be working.

Yes they can have some really nasty side effects and aren’t for everyone but I would imagine there is also just as many people who really benefit from them.

you won’t know which category you fit into if you don’t try. You have to weigh up if the potential side effects are more tolerable then what you are currently experiencing.

reach out to your drs and ask for their advice or ask for a referral to a talking therapy?