Intrusive thoughts are back

[lemontree27]

Hello,

I started getting some intrusive thoughts after having my first child 3 years ago

My pregnancy was very problematic and at high chance of having a poorly baby

Fortunately DD was born healthy however I didn't sleep well for months and that's when my mental health started getting worse

I was trying to meditate/ doing some breathing techniques however I was so overwhelmed that I had to see my GP

In the result of that I was prescribed some antidepressants. The tablets did help and I felt better for the last 6 months (still getting some intrusive thoughts but I was able to cope )

Recently my close friend passed away. I've also realised my diet is definitely much worse (comfort eating I think) I drink coffee as I am constantly tired
All of the sudden the thoughts are back too:(
I am overwhelmed. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I feel like my life is a constant battle
I would like to enjoy my day and dont feel low, anxious all the time
I dont do any rituals (OCD) just my head feels "heavy"
I really don't know what do to anymore. Any advice will be appreciated xx

Sending you a big hug OP ❤️‍🩹

Losing a close friend is incredibly hard and will have a huge affect. How recent was this? I think you have to give yourself time to grieve. If you are already a bit vulnerable from past MH issues it can be much harder to handle these knocks.

Have you had some therapy? There’s a lot of trauma here which I think you will really need to talk through with a professional.

If you are already on AD’s don’t be afraid to up your dosage (after chatting to the doctor) for a few weeks or months to help you get back to a better place. It is hard to eat healthily when you are feeling terrible so maybe try and just have some easy dinners that aren’t too bad etc.

Hope you spoken to your friends or family about how you are feeling?

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