Would citalopram help with this?

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Hi all, I know there are loads of threads on this but I am at the end of my tether and wondering what to do. I am 50 (on HRT if relevant) and just so bloody anxious all the time. I have a constant cycle of negative self-talk and recrimination going round my head and I just can't seem to control it. This is not new - I have battled it all my life but it seems to have reached an intensity which I am struggling to manage. The thing is, on the outside, I think I probably seem OK. I hold down a job (I mean, I think I'm a total failure in that job, but I still have it). I have a happy family life etc. Objectively, things are OK. Inside, I feel like a wreck. I have read about citalopram and it seems almost too good to be true but also I feel like I'd be giving up somehow, or taking the easy option, if I give it a go. Or maybe that if I am functioning, I am not 'bad' enough to need it. Anyone else felt like that, and has citalopram helped?

I’ve been on it on and off for 15 years. It takes the edge off my anxiety. But if I large wave hits I struggle still but day to day much better. I do get awful withdrawal symptoms if I start to come off it - so don’t want to at the moment

I'm the same on duloxetine. Hoping I find something that works fully. I researched and venlafaxine, citalopram and paroxetine were the highest reviewed but we can't influence what our go gives us x