I have to say firstly, I feel really vulnerable writing this, please don’t think badly of me, I already hate myself anyway….
I seem to have a problem when it comes to friends of mine. For example today a few of them have met up without me. I know it’s just because (without going in too much detail and outing myself) they have done an activity together today that they’re all involved in and I’m not.
Logically that’s fine, they’ve even told me about it, so why do I feel so sad. I always think it’s because I’m not as good a friend as they all are, or because I’m not good enough, or fun enough or whatever. I can’t stop thinking about it all day and I’m just moping around. I’ve always felt left different to everyone else, like I’m the odd one out. They’ve assured that’s not the case, and it’s normal to meet up with different groups of friends. So why am I so insecure? 😓 I’ve felt like this my whole life, I wish I didn’t.